Dear Diary,
After Holy Mass this morning, everyone gathered once again in our little Readers Clubhouse. It is beginning to feel like a second home. Father LeRoy asked me to read today's chapter summary, and everyone settled into their chairs while Sister Mary Claire poured cold Golden Rule milk into glasses. A plate of chocolate chip cookies was waiting on the little table, but Father smiled and said we should feed our minds before our stomachs.
I stood up and read my summary.
"Today's chapter reminded us that not every miracle happened all at once. Some of the healings at Lourdes came little by little, as if Our Lady was gently leading people toward health one step at a time.
One little boy named Lasbareilles had never been able to walk because his body was badly deformed from birth. His parents lovingly rubbed the water from the Grotto on him again and again. At first nothing seemed to happen, but they never gave up hope. On Holy Thursday he took a few steps by himself, and over the next several weeks he grew stronger until he could walk almost like any other child. Other people who suffered from paralysis and epilepsy were also healed gradually after using the water of Massabielle.
The chapter reminded us that God's miracles are not always sudden. Sometimes they come quietly and patiently, asking us to keep believing even when we cannot yet see the answer."
When I finished, everyone was quiet for a moment. Father LeRoy said that sometimes we expect God to work like lightning, but often He works more like the sunrise. We hardly notice the light growing until suddenly the whole world is bright. Sister Mary Claire said she admired the faith of the little boy's mother because she never stopped hoping. Robert nodded and said that mothers probably understand hope better than anyone.
After our discussion we enjoyed the cookies and the cold milk. We laughed together, but I kept thinking about how many blessings in life seem to arrive one little step at a time. Maybe growing closer to Jesus is like that too.
Before we left, Father asked me to read our Reading Club prayer.
"Dear Jesus, thank You for bringing us together again today. Help us to trust You, whether Your answers come quickly or slowly. Give us patient hearts, strong faith, and thankful spirits. May we always remember that You are working, even when we cannot yet see the whole picture. Bless our families, our parish, and everyone who needs Your healing. Amen."
Father made the Sign of the Cross over us and gave us his blessing. We all said goodbye until next time, and I walked home feeling thankful that God never forgets His children, even when His miracles come one quiet day at a time.
Love,
Kathy
Dear Diary,
This morning after Holy Mass, our Reading Club met in what everyone now calls the Readers Clubhouse. I like that name very much. Robert fixed up the old garage for me, but now it feels like it belongs to all of us.
The windows were open, and the air smelled fresh and clean. Sister Mary Claire set chocolate chip cookies on the little table, and beside them was a cold jar of Golden Rule Dairy Jersey milk.
After Father opened with a prayer, Father asked me to read my chapter summary. I stood up with my notes. I was a little nervous like I always am, but everyone was smiling, so that helped.
“Today’s chapter is called When Truth Could No Longer Be Denied.
The people who opposed Lourdes had tried for weeks to explain everything away. At first they simply denied the spring and the cures. They did not want to investigate because they had already made up their minds.
But the spring kept flowing, and more people kept being cured. Some who had been called incurable were now walking through town in good health, where everyone could see them.
The author says their mistake was denying the facts too soon. Once the truth became plain, they had to invent new explanations instead of admitting they had been wrong.”
When I finished, Father said pride can make a person shut his eyes even when the truth is right in front of him.
Robert said, “The spring was there, and the healed people were there too. They could not hide either one.”
Sister Mary Claire said God gives enough light for people to believe, but He does not force them.
That stayed with me. I hope I never become so proud that I cannot say, “I was wrong.” It seems much better to follow the truth than to protect my own opinion.
After our discussion, we had cookies and cold milk. Mini sat close to the table and behaved very well, except for watching every crumb.
Before everyone left, Father asked me to read our prayer.
“Dear Jesus, give us humble hearts that welcome truth. Keep us from pride and fear. Help us to follow the light You give us, and to trust You even when we do not understand everything. Amen.”
Father made the Sign of the Cross and blessed us.
“In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen. Go in peace.”
When the meeting was over, the sunlight was still shining through the clubhouse windows. I think every chapter is teaching us the same thing in a new way: truth belongs to God, and we should never be afraid of it.
Dear Diary,
Our Reading Club met today in the old garage that Robert fixed up for me as a quiet little prayer room. It used to be plain and dusty, but now it has a warm stove, a lantern on the table, a curtain by the bed, and the sign over everything that says All for Jesus.
Sister Mary Claire brought cookies and a jar of Golden Rule Milk for our lunch. Robert said cookies and milk are about the best reading food there is. Father LeRoy smiled and said he could not find fault with that.
When it was my turn, I stood near the stove and read my chapter summary.
I said that today’s chapter was about the chief government officer beginning to see that arresting Bernadette would not be easy. He did not seem very afraid of God’s signs, but he was troubled by the courage of Father Peyramale, the parish priest, who was ready to protect Bernadette.
The mayor did not want to help with such a harsh thing, and even offered to resign. The people were upset because the holy things had been taken away from the Grotto. Even the police and soldiers respected Bernadette, so the chief government officer could not be sure they would obey orders against her.
He had hoped the doctors would say Bernadette was crazy or confused, but they could not honestly say that. Everyone could see that she was sensible, truthful, and acting in good faith. So he had to stop his plan to have her locked away.
But he did not really give up. He only changed his plan. He still wanted to stop people from believing in the Apparition and from praying at Lourdes. Since he could not prove Bernadette was not right in her mind, he would look for another way to fight against what God was doing.
When I finished, Robert said, “So he lost that battle, but he still would not surrender.”
Father LeRoy said, “That is pride. It may change roads, but it does not easily change direction.”
Sister Mary Claire said the part that touched her most was how Bernadette remained free, probably saying her morning and evening prayers, without even knowing how much danger had passed over her head. Sister said, “God sometimes protects His little ones so quietly that they do not even know the whole battle.”
I liked that very much.
Then Father asked us what protected Bernadette in this chapter. I said, “The truth.” Robert said, “The priest.” Sister said, “God’s care.” Father smiled and said all three answers belonged together.
Before everyone left, we knelt in the little garage room and said a prayer together.
Dear Jesus, please protect the innocent and give courage to those who defend the truth. Keep me from being proud when I am wrong. Help me to follow You simply and faithfully, like Bernadette. Please bless our Reading Club, the little prayer room, and everyone who comes here. Let it all be for You. Amen.
Now the cookies are gone, the milk jar is empty, and the garage is quiet again.
But it does not feel empty.
It feels prayed in.
All for Jesus.
Dear Diary,
It was so good to be back at Littlemore Farm today. After getting home yesterday, Shaggycoat ran straight down the path toward the creek and his lodge, as if he had been gone a whole year instead of just a little while. So after Holy Mass this morning, the Reading Club decided to join Shaggycoat at creekside for the meetup.
Father LeRoy had picked up Krispy Kremes and a half gallon of cold milk, which made everything feel like a feast. We sat near the creek with our books open, the water moving quietly below the bluff, and the cave cool behind us.
When everyone was settled, Father nodded to me, and I read my chapter summary.
I told the club that this was a very sad day at Lourdes. The Prefect had ordered the Grotto to be stripped of the candles, statues, flowers, and little gifts people had placed there for Our Lady. M. Jacomet tried to get horses and a cart, but nearly everyone refused to help him. They did not want any part in what felt like disrespect toward the Blessed Virgin.
At last he found someone who would lend him a cart, and a great crowd followed him to Massabielle. The people were angry and sorrowful, but the priests had warned them to remain peaceful. They told them that if Our Lady wished, she could turn everything to her own glory without anyone needing to fight.
When the police removed the offerings and even broke the railing with an axe, the crowd nearly lost control. But some voices called out for calm, and no violence happened. That evening, the people returned to the Grotto with flowers and candles in their own hands, so the police could not seize them again.
When I finished, Father said that was a beautiful kind of protest—quiet, faithful, and full of trust. Sister Mary Claire said the people of Lourdes showed that love for Our Lady can be strong without becoming bitter. Robert said even the poorest people refused the money because their consciences were worth more than thirty francs.
I looked at the creek while he said that, and I thought how hard it must have been to watch holy things taken away and still not fight back. Maybe faith is sometimes strongest when it keeps its hands folded and lets God act.
After the meeting, we finished the last doughnuts, and Mini lay in the grass with milk on her whiskers. Shaggycoat stayed near the creek, looking very pleased to be home.
Evening Prayer
Dear Jesus, thank You for bringing us back to Littlemore Farm and for the quiet beauty of the creek and cave. Help me to love holy things, to trust Our Lady, and to stay peaceful even when something feels unfair. Bless Father LeRoy, Sister Mary Claire, Robert, Mini, Shaggycoat, and all our Reading Club.
Our Lady of Lourdes, pray for us.
Amen.
Dear Diary,
Father LeRoy woke us while it was still dark this morning for the long thirty-mile drive back to Littlemore. Bishop Mueller, being very organized, already had breakfast planned. When the housekeeper rang the bell, we came downstairs to bacon, eggs, and toast, which tasted wonderful so early in the morning.
Father said we were ahead of schedule, so we held our Reading Club meeting right there in the Bishop’s residence before leaving. My chapter was about the Curé of Lourdes, Abbé Peyramale, and how firmly he stood against the plan to arrest Bernadette. The Mayor realized the Curé would not give way, and that trying to take Bernadette might stir up the whole town. He finally said he would rather resign than help carry out such a terrible order.
Father said real courage is not loud, but faithful. Sister Mary Claire said the Curé protected Bernadette because she was small, poor, and obedient. Robert liked how one brave priest could stop a plan that seemed already settled.
Soon we thanked Bishop Mueller and started home. The sky grew pale as we drove through the quiet countryside. The corn looked beautiful—some waist high, and some nearly shoulder high. Father said the rain had done its work.
By the time we reached Littlemore, I was glad to be home near St. Mary’s, our fields, and our own little road.
Evening Prayer
Dear Jesus, thank You for bringing us safely home. Help me to be brave like the Curé of Lourdes and gentle like Bernadette. Bless Father LeRoy, Sister Mary Claire, Robert, Bishop Mueller, and our Reading Club.
Our Lady of Lourdes, pray for us.
Amen.
Dear Diary,
We spent our second night in Sioux City at the Bishop’s house, and tomorrow we will head home early so we can be back for Holy Mass at St. Mary’s on Sunday morning. It has been such a happy little stay, especially with our Reading Club meeting at the old Dairy Queen on Nebraska Street, with the old Central High standing proudly behind. Everyone enjoyed vanilla ice cream, and even Mini had her own little dish.
I read today’s chapter summary from Our Lady of Lourdes, about how the officials wanted to arrest poor Bernadette, but Father Peyramale stood firm and said they would have to pass over him before touching one hair of her head. Father LeRoy reminded us that this is what a true shepherd does—he protects the weak, even when the powerful stand against him. As evening settled in and fireworks blossomed across the Sioux City sky, I thanked God for faithful priests, for the freedom to practice our faith, and for another wonderful day with our Reading Club.
Evening Prayer
Dear Jesus, thank You for another peaceful night and for the kindness we have received during our stay. Give us the courage to stand for what is right, just as Father Peyramale did. Watch over us as we travel home tomorrow, bless our families, our country, and our little Reading Club, and bring us safely back to St. Mary’s for Holy Mass.
Amen.
Dear Diary,
We woke up in Sioux City this morning, which still feels strange to write.
Father LeRoy’s car needed something fixed, and since there was no reason to hurry home, Bishop Mueller kindly let us stay at his big house near Grandview Park. Father said it was a blessing disguised as a broken automobile, and I think he may be right.
After Holy Mass, we carried our books to Grandview Park. It was the most beautiful place our Reading Club has ever met. The bandshell stood white and grand beyond the flowers, and there were blossoms everywhere, bright as Sunday dresses. Mini settled in the grass like she owned the park, and Shaggycoat found the pond right away. He splashed so happily that Father said even beavers must sometimes give thanks in their own way.
We sat at our table with our books open, and Father asked me to read my chapter summary.
Today’s chapter was about the Prefect, Baron Massy, who came to Lourdes during the Council of Revision. Instead of seeing the faith of the people as something holy and consoling, he treated it like a public nuisance. He gave a speech to the mayors, saying that the Grotto had become an illegal oratory because people had left candles, religious objects, and offerings there.
The Prefect claimed to respect religion, but then ordered the police to remove everything from the Grotto. He also commanded that anyone claiming to see visions should be arrested and taken away for medical treatment. He wanted Bernadette stopped, the Grotto stripped bare, and the people frightened into silence.
The chapter says this happened on May 4, right at the beginning of Mary’s month. That made me sad. It seemed as if the Prefect was trying to begin the Month of Mary by taking away candles from Our Lady’s Grotto.
When I finished, nobody spoke for a moment. The flowers were moving in the breeze, and we could hear Shaggycoat splashing in the pond.
Then Robert said, “It sounds like he was afraid of candles.”
Father smiled a little and said, “Sometimes, Robert, men in power are not afraid of candles. They are afraid of what the candles mean.”
Sister Mary Claire said the poor people at Lourdes were not trying to rebel. They were only praying, leaving little signs of love, and drawing water from a place where God had given them hope.
Father said that faith gives poor people courage, especially when the world gives them very little else. He said that taking away someone’s place of prayer can wound the heart more deeply than people realize.
I looked toward the white bandshell and all the flowers, and I thought about the Grotto at Lourdes. It was not grand like Grandview Park, but Our Lady chose it. That made it beautiful in a way no one could take away.
Before we left, I read our prayer.
Dear Blessed Mother,
help us never to be ashamed of prayer.
Keep our hearts gentle, brave, and faithful,
even when others do not understand.
Teach us to love the little candles,
the quiet places,
and every sign that points us to God.
Amen.
Father made the Sign of the Cross and blessed us.
Then Bishop Mueller came by and said there was nothing pressing back home, and since Father’s car might take another day, we were welcome to stay a little longer. Father looked pleased, Robert looked very pleased, and Shaggycoat looked as if he had already decided the pond was his new parish.
So perhaps we will have another Reading Club meeting in Sioux City tomorrow.
I hope so.
Love,
Kathy
